Gray, Dreary, Rain, Ohio

Created: 01/08/2007 02:10:10 AM

My head has been filled with only negative thoughts for the last two weeks. I don't really know what has spawned it. If I were to take a look at the history of depression in my life, it would be quite confusing. While I remember so much depression in my teenage years, I have fits spaced between major events in my life. It's as if these strings of depression interconnect the rest of the episodes in an extremely long movie.

I think the main reason for this confusion and constant negativity is that I have ceased all communicative processes lately. I have had barely any real expression of emotion or personal perspective recently. I have to make a point to start communicating to people, wherever and in whatever form.

It's difficult to spend so much time trying to learn about the world around me, and yet have some type of existence of my own. I have always had the tendency to immerse myself completely in every idea that I try to understand. While that allows for an amazing insight, it also allows for neglect of my personal perspective and experience.

The sun is coming up now, and I can see the florescent light shining from beneath the horizon. Why has it been so quiet outside for so long?